New Job

This is the last year I'm going to teach for a while. My certificate expires and I didn't take the classes to keep it current because we were paying for an adoption (and knew i wouldn't be going back to work anytime soon) But, I just don't really want to teach anymore right now. For a lot of reasons, but few that i can actually articulate.

So I have to do something else.

The "Prayer of Abandonment"

for Adoptive Parents

Father, we abandon ourselves into your hands,

to send a child ... or not ... as you see fit.

You by whom the Word was made flesh,

send us a miracle, if this is what you desire.

Or lead us to her, if that be your will.

We do not ask for guarantees; no parent can.

Only light enough for the very next step.

We do not ask for a perfect child,

nor can we promise to be perfect parents.

Whatever you choose for us, whatever you desire

we abandon ourselves to your perfect will.

We are ready to offer our daily "yes,"

until that perfect will be revealed in us.

And until, at last perfected, we bear witness

to the work of redemption you began in Eden.

We love you, Lord, and offer ourselves to you,

wholly and without reservation.

We surrender ourselves, moment by moment,

knowing that this is only the first small step

Of a lifetime of surrender,

so that we may be made more perfect in love.

That we might imitate, on earth as in heaven,

the redemptive love

the adoptive love

the selfless love

with which you first loved us.